The song “Against the wind” by Bob Seger
Sometimes life turns you upside down. It shakes you completely until you release old misconceptions and you get rid of stuff you didn’t need but you didn’t know you didn’t. When you finally get to stand up again, still dizzy, you suddenly see everything with new open eyes. Very opened. And everything changes. You receive a kind of flashforward in your mind that tells you your path has changed. So, you don’t really know where you’re going, but you do know you’ll have to go against the wind.
It’s ok when you’re sure about your destination, but when you are just walking towards the unknown, your mind sometimes doubts you and you have to stop to find shelter against the wind, because its pressure is too much to bear. What society says, what your parents expect, what your friends think about who you are… But the most difficult is yourself alone, your thoughts and ideas about who you are and about what you are able to get. Or not get.
The inner voices
You can’t do it. Who do you think you are? Going against the wind? You crazy stupid girl. Always rebelling.Why do you question your existence here? If only you were happy with what you have. You have more than others. Get content with it. Why aren’t you an ordinary person who wants the same as the average people? Just be simple as the others. Why do you worry so much about everything? Learn how to conform, your life will be easier. Don’t you see it? Why can’t you have a normal job and work without questioning what you do?
These are some of the inner voices I hear when I doubt myself. It’s not easy to deal with them, but sooner or later you learn to deal with them. I’ve learned that what you have to do is accepting the state of doubt you’re in, getting shelter for some time and then, learn from your questions and your fears. So when you’re ready, you can leave the shelter and continue walking your path agaisnt the wind.
As usual with the songs I post here, they always have a message for me in the very divine timing I need them. And it’s wonderful to receive such nice messages. Thank you always for them. And what was more like a message for me was this part of the lyrics:
“Against The Wind” – Bob Seger
And the years rolled slowly past
And I found myself alone
Surrounded by strangers I thought were my friends
I found myself further and further from my home
And I guess I lost my way
There were oh so many roads
I was living to run and running to live
Never worried about paying or even how much I owed
Moving eight miles a minute for months at a time
Breaking all of the rules that would bend
I began to find myself searchin’
Searchin’ for shelter again and again
Against the wind
A little something against the wind
I found myself seeking shelter against the wind
Against the wind
I’m still runnin’ against the wind
I’m older now but still running x2